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〃No。 This is only the spring。 I feel very low。〃
〃You have the war disgust。〃
〃No。 But I hate the war。〃
〃I don't enjoy it；〃 I said。 He shook his head and looked out of the window。
〃You do not mind it。 You do not see it。 You must forgive me。 I know you are wounded。〃
〃That is an accident。〃
〃Still even wounded you do not see it。 I can tell。 I do not see it myself but I feel it a little。〃
〃When I was wounded we were talking about it。 Passini was talking。〃
The priest put down the glass。 He was thinking about something else。
〃I know them because I am like they are；〃 he said。
〃You are different though。〃
〃But really I am like they are。〃
〃The officers don't see anything。〃
〃Some of them do。 Some are very delicate and feel worse than any of us。〃
〃They are mostly different。〃
〃It is not education or money。 It is something else。 Even if they had education or money men like Passini would not wish to be officers。 I would not be an officer。〃
〃You rank as an officer。 I am an officer。〃
〃I am not really。 You are not even an Italian。 You are a foreigner。 But you are nearer the officers than you are to the men。〃
〃What is the difference？〃
〃I cannot say it easily。 There are people who would make war。 In this country there are many like that。 There are other people who would not make war。〃
〃But the first ones make them do it。〃
〃Yes。〃
〃And I help them。〃
〃You are a foreigner。 You are a patriot。〃
〃And the ones who would not make war？ Can they stop it？〃 I do not know。
He looked out of the window again。 I watched his face。
〃Have they ever been able to stop it？〃
〃They are not organized to stop things and when they get organized their leaders sell them out。〃
〃Then it's hopeless？〃
〃It is never hopeless。 But sometimes I cannot hope。 I try always to hope but sometimes I cannot。〃
〃Maybe the war will be over。〃
〃I hope so。〃
〃What will you do then？〃
〃If it is possible I will return to the Abruzzi。〃
His brown face was suddenly very happy。
〃You love the Abruzzi？〃
〃Yes； I love it very much。〃
〃You ought to go there then。〃
〃I would be too happy。 If I could live there and love God and serve Him。〃
〃And be respected；〃 I said。
〃Yes and be respected。 Why not？〃
〃No reason not。 You should be respected。〃
〃It does not matter。 But there in my country it is understood that a man may love God。 It is not a dirty joke。〃
〃I understand。〃
He looked at me and smiled。
〃You understand but you do not love God。〃
〃No。〃
〃You do not love Him at all？〃 he asked。
〃I am afraid of Him in the night sometimes。〃
〃You should love Him。〃
〃I don't love much。〃
〃Yes；〃 he said。 〃You do。 What you tell me about in the nights。 That is not love。 That is only passion and lust。 When you love you wish to do things for。 You wish to sacrifice for。 You wish to serve。〃
〃I don't love。〃
〃You will。 I know you will。 Then you will be happy。〃
〃I'm happy。 I've always been happy。〃
〃It is another thing。 You cannot know about it unless you have it。〃
〃Well；〃 I said。 〃If I ever get it I will tell you。〃
〃I stay too long and talk too much。〃 He was worried that he really did。
〃No。 Don't go。 How about loving women？ If I really loved some woman would it be like that？〃
〃I don't know about that。 I never loved any woman。〃
〃What about your mother？〃
〃Yes； I must have loved my mother。〃
〃Did you always love God？〃
〃Ever since I was a little boy。〃
〃Well；〃 I said。 I did not know what to say。 〃You are a fine boy；〃 I said。
〃I am a boy；〃 he said。 〃But you call me father。〃
〃That's politeness。〃
He smiled。
〃I must go； really；〃 he said。 〃You do not want me for anything？〃 he asked hopefully。
〃No。 Just to talk。〃
〃I will take your greetings to the mess。〃
〃Thank you for the many fine presents。〃
〃Nothing。〃
〃e and see me again。〃
〃Yes。 Good…by；〃 he patted my hand。
〃So long；〃 I said in dialect。
〃Ciaou；〃 he repeated。
It was dark in the room and the orderly； who had sat by the foot of the bed； got up and went out with him。 I liked him very much and I hoped he would get back to the Abruzzi some time。 He had a rotten life in the mess and he was fine about it but I thought how he would be in his own country。 At Capracotta； he had told me； there were trout in the stream below the town。 It was forbidden to play the flute at night。 When the young men serenaded only the flute was forbidden。 Why； I had asked。 Because it was bad for the girls to hear the flute at night。 The peasants all called you 〃Don〃 and when you met them they took off their hats。 His father hunted every day and stopped to eat at the houses of peasants。 They were always honored。 For a foreigner to hunt he must present a certificate that he had never been arrested。 There were bears on the Gran Sasso D'Italia but it was a long way。 Aquila was a fine town。 It was cool in the summer at night and the spring in Abruzzi was the most beautiful in Italy。 But what was lovely was the fall to go hunting through the chestnut woods。 The birds were all good because they fed on grapes and you never took a lunch because the peasants were always honored if you would eat with them at their houses。 After a while I went to sleep。
12
The room was long with windows on the right…hand side and a door at the far end that went into the dressing room。 The row of beds that mine was in faced the windows and another row； under the windows； faced the wall。 If you lay on your left side you could see the dressing…room door。 There was another door at the far end that people sometimes came in by。 If any one were going to die they put a screen around the bed so you could not see them die； but only the shoes and puttees of doctors and men nurses showed under the bottom of the screen and sometimes at the end there would be whispering。 Then the priest would e out from behind the screen and afterward the men nurses would go back behind the screen to e out again carrying the one who was dead with a blanket over him down the corridor between the beds and some one folded the screen and took it away。
That morning the major in charge of the ward asked me if I felt that I could travel the next day。 I said I could。 He said then they would ship me out early in the morning。 He said I would be better off making the trip now before it got too hot。
When they lifted you up out of bed to carry you into the dressing room you could look out of the window and see the new graves in the garden。 A soldier sat outside the door that opened onto the garden making crosses and painting on them the names； rank； and regiment of the men who were buried in the garden。 He also ran errands for the ward and in his spare time made me a cigarette lighter out of an empty Austrian rifle cartridge。 The doctors were very nice and seemed very capable。 They were anxious to ship me to Milan where there were better X…ray facilities and where； after the operation； I could take mechano…therapy。 I wanted to go to Milan too。 They wanted to get us all out and back as far as possible because all the beds were needed for the offensive； when it should start。
The night before I left the field hospital Rinaldi came in to see me with the major from our mess。 They said that I would go to an American hospital in Milan that had just been installed。 Some American ambulance units were to be sent down and this hospital would look after them and any other Americans on service in Italy。 There were many in the Red Cross。 The States had declared war on Germany but not on Austria。
The Italians were sure America would declare war on Austria too and they were very excited about any Americans ing down； even the Red Cross。 They asked me if I thought President Wilson would declare war on Austria and I said it was only a matter of days。 I did not know what we had against Austria but it seemed logical that they should declare war on her if they did on Germany。 They asked me if we would declare war on Turkey。 I said that was doubtful。 Turkey； I said； was our national bird but the joke translated so badly and they were so puzzled and suspicious that I said yes； we would probably declare war on Turkey。 And on Bulgaria？ We had drunk several glasses of brandy and I said yes by God on Bulgaria too and on Japan。 But； they said； Japan is an ally of England。 You can't trust the bloody English。 The Japanese want Hawaii； I said。 Where is Hawaii？ It is in the Pacific Ocean。 Why do the Japanese want it？ They don't really want it； I said。 That is all talk。 The Japanese are a wonderful little people fond of dancing and light wines。 Like the French； said the major。 We will get Nice and Savoia from the French。 We will get Corsica and all the Adriatic coast…line； Rinaldi said。 Italy will return to the splendors of Rome； said the major。 I don't like Rome； I said。 It is hot and full of fleas。 You don't like Rome？ Yes； I love Rome。 Rome is the mother of nations。 I will never forget Romulus suckling the Tiber。 What？ Nothing。 Let's all go to Rome。
Let's go to Rome to…night and never e back。 Rome is a beautiful city； said the major。 The mother and father of nations； I said。 Roma is feminine； said Rinaldi。 It cannot be the father。 Who is the father； then； the Holy Ghost？ Don't blaspheme。 I wasn't blaspheming； I was asking for information。 You are drunk； baby。 Who made me dr